Monday, 18 June 2018

Prelims in ruins

Date:3/6/2018, Time 18:18
1st paper was beyond me, the situations which I had heard of are being experienced by me(people qualifying for mais but failing prelims in next attempt) Didn't check the marks, need to see them fast, the reservation to Kotdwar hangs on that. Whatever be the consequence need to face it bravely and judiciously plan out my next step. Hope dies last!!

Date:18/6/2018, Time: 21:33
Getting in range of 98-104 , lot of variations in answer key, many in the same range, just wondering, when i appeared for pre last year after 3 -3.5 months of prep, i performed much better and passed the 1st stage, but here I am after 1yr 3 months of prep and still in a situation where I am not sure whether I will get to write mains this year or not. With so less no. of seats it's impossible for cutoff to below a certain limit( ard 100), because there will always be some set of students who will find the test in their favour + the students who prepare solely for pre further increase the cutoffs, making life difficult for serious mains candidates. This year's easy CSAT can also prevent the cutoffs from going too low unlike last time.

The biggest question is how should i study so as to make sure that I qualify  pre next year for sure. Studying more is one option but certainly more smart effort is required. One thing I understood from this their's pre, there is no substitute for newspaper, the questions which i answered most confidently was a result of my knowldege gained through passionately reading newspapers.. Also my love for travelling(Kodikalnal-man made lake) and tracing train routes also helped.( Bangalore to Delhi Rajdhani , 1st goes towards right towards Hyd, Hyderbad to Nagpur almost straight, Nagpur to Bhopal left, Bhopal to Jhansi litle right, Jhnasi to Delhi left, so ideally Bangalore-Bhopal-Delhi should be in a straight line running parallel to longitude; so Bangalore and Delhi have almost same longitude not Delhi-Hyderabad or Delhi-Nagpur).

So conclusion, is reading just coaching booklets doesn't help, the knowledge acquired from daily observation does help in 2-3 questions, which might be the deciding factor

Friday, 1 June 2018

Civil Service Prelims 2018

2 days for Prelims. Last year I had lesser preparation but more confidence, this year inspite of more dedicated efforts and practice, I don't feel confident. Probably i more aware of the competition , more competition this year ( due to lesser seats) and aware of the fact that I narrowly got through last year.

In spite of studying hard and  revising well till now, here I am wiling away my time at the cruch time when real champions increase their efforts. I  am sleeping more than usual, dreaming about situations which don't exist and may never exist. This year has been overall very bad till now(especially after April) and i don't want the miseries to pile up on me. Failure is not an option, failing prelims will be a blow and a situation will arise for which i am not at all prepared.

Thinking what's after exam is not my job, i have to go there , perform to best of my abilities. But before that I have to make sure, I keep all my arsenal ready, for which I need to utilize these last 2 days very well. It's not over till it's over.